Hi, I have been out of the closet 3 and a half months. Since then I have been in a relationship with a man, who was my friend for about 4 months before I confessed to him that, I too was gay and I had feelings for him. I find at this point no one can turn me on besides him. I am not even attracted to many men anymore, I look at them and say "ehhh my boyfriend is hotter". I even check out more girls then men, but obviously its not a sexual thing. Does this mean I'm in love? I feel like I am. He is going away for a week to florida and I feel like I am going to be depressed when he is not around. All of this has made me a little confused, I am going to see a counselor, because my mom thinks I might be bi-sexual, but to be "bi" aren't you supposed to be sexually attracted to women? Or can it be just a face thing? Like I love girls, I'm not shy to check one out and look at her cleavage, but when her boobs leave her shirt, its kind of gross and doesn't phase me. And I feel like vagina's are wierd looking, but they don't necessairly repulse me. If I look at a lesbian porn I am not grossed out, I just do not get arroused. If I look at a gay porn, I get arroused but I don't even feel like doing anything with my erection because its not for my boyfriend, and even if I tried, I would probably lose it. I have OCD and I over analyze everything, which causes me to doubt myself about everything. What do you think? Also, multiple times I will be having oral sex with my boyfriend and an image of a "vagina" will flow into my head, and ruin my orgasm, and sometimes even turn me off.